Where to go from here...

He's not the one for me. I can see it in his eyes. He knows me inside and out - better than anyone else, but still he makes me want to tear my hair out. The way he calls asking to plan out the week together, and the way he can never do anything spontaneous. It makes me sick to my stomach. He is everything everyone else wants for me, and nothing that I want for myself. He would be the man of my dreams - if I wanted to know what every day would be like for the rest of my life... But I don't. I thrive on the unknown and unexpected. I live for detours and ruined plans - they have been responsible for the best times of my life. I just don't think I can break his heart again. If I lose him this time, it is sure to be for good... So where do I go from here...